At 11 years old, I was 5’8″ and could pitch in the mid 60s, throw overhand in the mid 60s, and consistently hit in the 3 and 4 spot in the lineup.
But I was wild.
I couldn’t control my pitches and I had a hard time controlling my overhand throws.
I wore my emotions on my sleeve and I was an angry kid. My internal rage ruled my private practices. I was frustrated with myself CONSTANTLY.
My coaches saw the talent as well as the mental struggles I was going through and tried to help, but few could reach me. The ones who did were the ones that consistently praised me. My confidence was built on their admiration and crushed in their frustration.
In college, I managed to land at a Division 1 school that was in the Top 25. By my junior year, I was the head coach’s “pet peeve”. I was ridiculously hard on myself and he wanted to prove he could be harder on me than I was. When the emotional and physical abuse got to be too much, I quit.
I’d never quit anything in my life and I fell into a dark depression. I’d quit the thing I loved the most.
And then I met the coaches that would piece me back together with the skills I needed to start building my mental game. At UCCS, I learned the basis of what I teach now.
I needed to find consistency in my physical game so my head could find a more meditative state, which is what I now call The White Zone.
Those skills are what made it possible for me to be recruited to play in the NPF and semi-pro international softball. I turned down both opportunities to pursue my career as an engineer on NASA’s Artemis Program.
I went on to become a certified yoga instructor which furthered my knowledge of the mental game. And that led me to become a competitive powerlifter that qualified for Worlds at 38 years old.
Over the last 20 years, I have worked with players and teams to help them meld the physical game with the mental game. I’ve developed a process that walks the player through their own softball journey into their role on the team.
I take teams from disjointed individuals to a cohesive unit with one heartbeat for this game. And I do it in 6 weeks.